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]-[ø££øw'ک £âìrIs there a spell that I am under keeping me from seeing the real thing? Love Hurts... Just HalfIs the glass half empty or half full? I'm undecided at the moment... Life is full of change and with it challenges
Do I dare attempt to mend a fallen relationship, just to feel the comfort of normalcy?
NO, though many challenges lie ahead, I refuse to be dragged back into that rut.
Trudging onward through the swamp of negativity, moving forward ever so slowly, but surely
Reaching for that light to shine upon my face, warming my very soul with contentment.
But will I ever be content? It's a question that haunts me daily
So in conclusion, the glass is not half empty or half full, it's just half. Independence DayJuly 4th is rapidly approaching and this year the holiday brings on a whole new meaning for me. I have decided that I want to divorce my wife and after hours of revelations and accusations, we've finally determined that this is a mutually agreed upon decision. As previously stated in the last blog, we are going to be very civilized & amicable towards each other for the sake of our children. We plan on remaining friends, again for the children's benefit, but oddly enough, our relationship has improved dramatically in just a week and a half since the decision was made! I think it's because we both were feeling a lot of animosity towards each other, feeling trapped, which was resulting in anxiety and depression. Closure sure feels good :D I know it's gonna be a rough road ahead for both of us, but we're both willing and actually looking forward to living on our own...so wish me luck!! The ENDThe ending, finished, done, completed, over...no matter how you put it, that's exactly what my marriage is at the moment! Don't stress or worry about me though, I'm not sad...I'm actually relieved that this has happened. It's like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. This has been a LONG time coming, we've been two strangers that has lived under one roof for far too long. All motion, no emotion...as I've said before...but it's the truth.
Good news though, we've agreed to remain civil & involve the children as little as possible, not uprooting their young lives with forcing the sale of our home, etc...We know that we both love the children very much and we still want to be the best parents to them....but just not together. We understand that parents fighting or being cold or distant with one other is very detrimental in the development and psyche of growing children. Also, it's not a very good example of what a "normal" marriage or any kind of relationship SHOULD be like!
In closing, your thoughts, prayers and kind words...even possibly suggestions on how to handle things would be much appreciated :) Only one?Loneliness is a common human condition
I'm not the only one Jealousy torments the heart, weighing heavily on your soul I'm not the only one Hypocrisy being a part of everyone's existance, most in denial I'm not the only one Addictions tearing at the mind, "will power" being only one step in recovery I'm not the only one Willing to sacrifice everything that I know for you I AM the only one I cannot give you everything that you desire in life, just the desire in my heart to please you with everything that I am!  SensesI want to breathe in the aroma of your beauty, the sweet scents filling every part of me To listen intently to your laugh, your cry, as I hold you tightly in my arms, your gentle whisper in my ear saying, "I love you and only you"
To stroke my fingers through your gorgeous hair, to caress the beautiful features of your face softly, intimately, touching the smooth skin of your arms, your legs, your...
Watching intently as your body responds to my intimate touch, your eyes closing...lips pursing in ecstasy
To savor in my mouth the many wonderful tastes I would experience from your body
Can you sense my longing to fulfill these?
Inspired by you & always for you, my babygirl
 Enemies & Friends - A HaikuEnemies
Silent, Bitter
Fighting, Hating, Hurting
At last face to face
Asking, Thinking, Hoping
Talking, Laughing
Friends
I'd love to take credit for this poem, but I can't. I remember reading it in High School & liking it. I wanted to share it with all of you  It's good, isn't it? I tried to write some Japanese poetry/Haiku in Composition/English class, but they never seemed to turn out as well as this one!A Below satisfactory existenceAre you feeling content with the way things are right now? Don't you feel like something's missing in your life, like I do?
Twisting my emotions into complacent numbness, a zombie living out the rest of his days.
Truth has been realized, but many lies and deceptions have doomed us...
Somehow, strangely enough I'm drawn to you more each day.
The choice should have been mine, my right from the very start to stay or leave, but honesty was hidden from my eyes
Am I a fool or is the thought of such a love foolish?
Will there be no satisfaction for my heart? The flesh being such a temporal, shallow pleasure.
I feel more, much more then just the lust of my eyes, a hollow life I lead
The hole-hearted existence that I live being substandard.
 Doesn't everybody feel this way, or is it just me?Hello, my name is _____ and I suffer from guilt for not forwarding 50 billion f****** chain letters sent to me by people who actually believe that if you send them on, a poor six-year-old girl in Nebraska with a breast on her forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed before her redneck parents sell her to a travelling freak show. And, do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you, and everyone to whom you send "his" email, $1000? How stupid are you? Ooooh, looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get laid by a model I just happen to run into the very next day!" What a bunch of bs. Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns will come into my house and sodomize me in my sleep for not continuing a chain letter that was started by St Peter in 5 AD and brought to this country by midget pilgrim stowaways on the Endeavour. F*** 'em. If you're going to forward something, at least send me something mildly amusing. I've seen all the "send this to 10 of your closest friends, and this poor, wretched excuse for a human being will somehow receive a nickel from some omniscient being" forwards about 90 times. I don't f****** care. Show a little intelligence and think about what you're actually contributing to by sending out these forwards. Chances are, it's your own unpopularity. The point being? If you get some chain letter that's threatening to leave you f***less or luckless for the rest of your life, delete it. If it's funny, send it on. Don't piss people off by making them feel guilty about a leper in Botswana with no teeth who has been tied to the ass of a dead elephant for 27 years and whose only salvation is the 5 cents per letter he'll receive if you forward this email. Now forward this to everyone you know. Otherwise, tomorrow morning your underwear will turn carnivorous and will consume your genitals. Have a nice day. P. S. Send me 15 bucks and Then F*** Off _________________________________________________________________________________________
After I read this "forwarded" email, I practically died laughing! Just wanted to share this with all of my spaces friends A fictional story based on truthI've written a story for somone very special to me that took a lot of time to complete with all the writing, revising...and re-writing. I'm not an author by NO stretch of the imagination, but I must say that I'm quite proud of my first attempt at creating something like this. I used my imagination plus my memory of past conversations with this particular person to formulate a senerio/fictional story based on the knowledge of said person and the truth that's embedded in my heart. I'm not exactly sure though, that it would be appropriate for Spaces...well, quite frankly, it gets quite racy at times
 ! Do you think I should reprint it, with the risk of being deleted?
Let me know what ya think, ok?
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Were you dreaming?Were you dreaming of me when you smiled last night?
Were we hand in hand on a pleasant walk?
Once together, never seperated again
Two hearts fusing, welded into one
A lifetime of waiting satisfied at last
Was that contentment I saw on your face?
Knowing I was the one granting you that feeling
The joy that you feel in your heart never wanting to end
Were you moistening your lips ready for a kiss?
So nervous as our lips press together
The rush of sensations, such emotion in that first kiss
Was it your tears that moistened the pillow?
Your heart in such turmoil
Saying "Goodbye"...maybe for the last time
Realizing I was mistaken, the tears that stained the pillow were mine.
 What or Who am I to you?Give it to me straight, what am I to you anyways? Am I just a guy that gives you nice comments on these spaces? Someone that you like to visit from time to time to read my stupid scribblings on life as I see it? lol...Am I your friend? Your heart's desire? :P lol...don't be afraid to tell me off either, I just want to know where I stand with you!!
 BTW: Say as little or as much as you'd like, it's your call! A Heart Warming Cold DreamIt was cold, but not cold enough to want to go inside
The snow that you had never once experienced lie all around us
Covering the grass, trees...EVERYthing!
The way your eyes sparkled as you gazed upon it's brillance
Looking on as the kids played and made "snow angels"
Feeling like a kid yourself, making a snowball and tossing it at me
Suddenly blindsided, looking up from the white powdery snow that surrounds you
Seeing me over you with a wide grin on my face
You're heart filled with happiness...you smile back :)
 Without you...Where are you now?
Why can't you hear me calling? I lie here alone accompanied only with my thoughts Staring at the ceiling, the cool air circulating upon my body Closing my eyes, drifting into sleep I dream of a remote island, our nakedness basking in the sunlight Hand in hand, turning our heads towards each other, smiling saying "I love you" with only our eyes Suddenly, my mind is jarred back to reality... Can I keep this charade going a little longer perhaps? Shall I pretend that life is fine and I also with it? I can't have you though I yearn with every fiber of my being for your love, your touch... jealous of your thoughts, selfishly wanting you to want me only is this love or foolishness...or both? Feels like years since we've talked last though I know it's been only days I need to feel you needing me, but I've felt that only on seldom occasion instead I feel enclosed within myself, unable to let out my frustrations My GOD...will this longing ever end? You've said that I know you better then most, why won't you let me in? My heart desiring for you to open up, to pour out your sadness, your hopes, your dreams Lifting my weary head to look again, only to reveal that nothing has changed... I continue staring at a screen waiting, wondering....without you Thanksgiving by NJFIt's Thanksgiving time and time to be thankful! I'm thankful for my dad because he is very funny. He can tell a joke anytime he wants to, so be on the lookout. I'm also thankful for my dad because my dad stays healthy by lifting weights and eating right. That way he will live longer. And last, but not least, I'm thankful for my dad because he is alive. There was a terrible car accident and my dad was in it. Even his heart stopped. So I'm very happy that I can have a day to really think about what I'm thankful for.
Written by: Nicholas Age 9 (my son :D ) Woman by Maroon 5If I'd be so inclined to climb up beside you,
Would you tell me that the time just isn't right? And if I ever find the key you hide so well, Will you tell me that I can spend the night? Leaving your smell on my coat, leaving your taste on my shoulder
I still fail to understand what it is about this woman. If I could bottle up the chills that you give me
I would keep them in a jar next to my bed. And if I should ever draw a picture of a woman It is you that would come flowing from my pen. Leaving your clothes on my floor, making me walk out the door
And I still fail to understand what it is about this woman. Helplessly melting as I stand next to the sun
As she burned me, I am screaming out for more. Drink every drop of liquid heat that I've become Pop me open, spill me out on to the floor. Leaving your smell on my coat, leaving your taste on my shoulder
I still fail to understand, fail to understand. Leaving your smell on my coat, leaving your taste on my shoulder I still fail to understand what it is about this woman. |
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